"i can almost smell you when i close my eyes". i thought i was going to pass out as i heard the words come out of your mouth. i felt a surge of warmth cover me like a blanket and i think in that very moment, i felt more tenderness and love than ever before. i could have wept over the very thought of someone thinking of me in such a way. i don't think anyone has said anything like that to me. i almost cried with relief. i want you to know that was the best compliment i had ever received.

i am starting to feel it. i am starting to feel the divide. i have seperation anxiety. i am destroying something beautiful. i cannot stop myself. it is all but gone. i can tell. i can tell by your thoughts. i can tell by my own. i feel as though it almost never was. today when we spoke, i didn't want to talk. i wanted you to tell me everything was okay. it was not. i pushed and pushed and you slowly drifted away.