you are so beautiful
it overwhelmed me when we met
now your face
makes me cringe with regret

i thought i would never meet
someone like you in my lifetime
where i was yours
and you were mine

i now have no desire to ever
again see your face
to be reminded of the
bittersweet way you taste

you only leave me angry
surrounded by confusion
from what was the reality of us
and what was the illusion

your lips spill over with lies
and excuses of reason
never before have i witnessed
such deception and treason

i don't understand
how you could say so much
but your actions screamed
of disrespect, of shameful lust

you are not my friend
you cannot even be considered my foe
how can i mean nothing to someone
with whom i went through my lowest of lows

how could i have placed value
on someone who didn't value me at all
i am sad to feel my heart
put up this wall

to think you might have
ruined me for all others
just because you broke
the promise of forever together

your eyes make me angry
to the point that i could scream
why the fuck did you lie
and why to me?

you told me of your past
and of your heart being broke
how you could never do that
to someone you loved...you fucking joke

you are not the man i thought you were
nor do you have the ability to be
with you, i was truly blind
without you, i can finally see

i once said you you were
unwritten poetry of my soul
this is not what i had meant,
its just my way of letting go

i cannot let you make me bitter
or ruin me for all others
i deserve the you and i
the forever together

its okay that its not with you
and i much prefer it that way
i need a man that keeps his word
even in the lowest of lows, will stay

not a man who lies, cheats
or speaks out of the side of his face
someone i cry about at night
who makes me feel like a mistake

i am looking for love
and i deserve to find it out there
i don't want to call you anymore
begging you to care

you used me like i was disposable
like i am easy to replace
that very thought is what
leaves me with a bitter aftertaste

you are wrong about me
mr.friend nor foe
someday you will be filled with regret
that you had even let me go